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cashew: Picture of Riza Hawkeye emptying her guns at the viewer (FMA // die)
2017-06-22 10:40 am

What the fuck is wrong with Americans?

So, I just watched the released video of the Philando Castile shooting case.

Warning: This is...super depressing. Basically, to describe what happened, a police officer pulls over a car, whose driver happens to be a black man. Black man informs police that he has a conceal permit and has the gun on his person, AS REQUIRED BY LAW.

Police officer proceed to FLIP HIS SHIT AND SHOOT THE MAN 7 TIMES.


There is no question the police at the moment was scared. The question is: WHY? Because a black man has a legal permit to carry firearm and is exercising that right, so that's enough reason to be scared?

But the craziest part is, I have to also wonder, like Trevor Noah has on the Daily Show, ARE WE WATCHING THE SAME VIDEO?

How can people sit here and justify the police officer's complete and utter freak out was normal? It's his fucking job to stay calm. It should not be the fucking civilian's job to assure the police officer.

Don't cite at me how many police officers have been shot in the line of duty. MORE BLACK MEN HAVE BEEN SHOT. THOUSANDS have been shot. So, fuck off. No, your police officer lives are NOT more important and their freak outs to protect themselves are costing civilian lives. Civilians WHO DID NOT SIGN UP FOR THIS.

Either police forces need to increase vetting process or they need to stop arming their officers if this is how they respond to any sort of non-existent perceived threat.

Also, Fuck You America. Just Fuck You.
cashew: Picture of Riza Hawkeye emptying her guns at the viewer (FMA // die)
2017-06-20 11:47 am
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A recent peeve about Captain America fandom

All these able-bodied people need to stop using Bucky Barnes as a disability porn doll. Just fucking stop.

I'm not going to speak on behalf of disabled people, that would be stupid. But here's the problem: BUCKY IS NOT DISABLED.

If you for one second think just because Bucky has a mechanical arm makes him a disabled person, you need help. For fuck's sake, his arm functions like a regular arm. He's never had to deal with not having an arm. He didn't have to live for any amount of time with that knowledge. Hell, he's so dexterous with it that it's impossible to tell that he's got a fake arm. It acts more like an arm covered in armor than a fake prosthetic.

So no, the point is Bucky Barnes is most certainly NOT disabled. Also, as an able bodied person, I can say with great conviction that if I were able to get a replacement limb when one of my limbs got removed, I would most certainly want it. And seeing as Bucky was also an able bodied person, there is no fucking reason why he would want to give up a functioning arm.

Writing about how Bucky feels the mechanical arm dehumanizes him is utterly ludicrous and is more disrespectful towards disability than I even have words for. Just...what is wrong with you people? Disability rights activists are fighting for equal access and part of that equal access is to have high tech prosthetics to help replace missing abilities. Hell, just look how fucking happy these color blind people are when they can see color with special glasses! So don't you fucking tell me how disabled people somehow resent technology that can give them access to the same abilities of their able-bodied equals.

Just fuck you.
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2017-06-15 07:24 pm

What is an RPG? What is a JRPG?

If you're wondering, the reason I'm writing this in the first place is because I would like to do some self examination on what I like/dislike about games as I make my own. You are probably thinking, "But [personal profile] cashew, how can you not know what you like? Just put what you like in a game and go from there." Well, dear hypothetical reader, the reason I approach the problem via this kind of categorical analysis is because just throwing things you like about a game into a single game doesn't actually make a good game. Much like throwing ingredients together doesn't result in a meal or mixing chemicals don't necessarily result in a chemical reaction unless you know what the working mechanics are, so too goes with games. By understanding what makes a game a certain genre, I think it allows me to understand what about that genre is engaging. And since I am aware that I tend to enjoy games that are classified as "JRPG" (FF, Tales, Pokemon, Valkyria Chronicles, etc.), I think it is worth while to wrangle with what makes an RPG an RPG, and what makes an RPG a JRPG, as opposed to some other type of RPG.

So what makes an RPG? )

Okay, so that covers what is an RPG. Now comes the harder part, what is a JRPG?

This is a question without a good answer. )

P.S. By the definition I offered, Undertale is most certainly a JRPG.
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2017-06-13 11:19 am

Game design skills & weapon integration - looking for feedback

So, as I clean-up and do math on my game's data base, I'm struck with trying to figure out how to convey information to the players regarding the interaction between skills & weapons in such a way that I'm not sitting the player down to explain things in giant blocks of text, but at the same time still get across the concept of skill and weapon interaction.

For example: Daggers are fast attacking weapons, with low attack damage (how original *eyeroll*). However, I also made certain defensive skills only available when wielding a dagger in the Off-hand slot. Now I'm hit with the indecision if I should change the attack number (times you hit) to only affect when wielded in the Main Hand slot, thus forcing the player to choose between a more aggressive style (and sacrificing defense) versus a slightly more defensive style (and sacrificing offense). Or, I could go with trying to teach the player that a dagger weapon is most optimal when used as a defensive weapon and keeping the Main Hand open for much heavier hitting weapons.

Another example: Both shield and daggers are defensive weapons, however a dagger is a chance based defensive weapon that is mostly selfish - parry attacks to return damage, while a shield is fully defensive weapon that is supportive with no offensive abilities - shield party members from getting attacked, but eats a reduced amount of damage. However, at the same time, both weapons could be used offensively, depending on the character that wields it. Now, should I make the puzzle of this strategy trying to find the most optimal set up, or balance it such that regardless of the set up, the strategy is equally optimal, but the choice is a matter of chance based versus steady performance?

And in both examples, would it be better to just reduce the amount of interaction thereby making the battle mechanics easier to grasp?
cashew: Nokoru looking drained with a steaming cup of tea and his fingers up in a victory sign (CCD // exhausted)
2017-06-10 12:03 am

Black Panther Trailer

Is it wrong that the only thing I can think when I see this is: "Oh god, they're going to fuck it up aren't they? Please don't fuck up. Please don't fuck up. Please don't fuck up."

Because, y'know, only the first PoC superhero movie to come out (no, Blade doesn't count). No pressure or anything...

*squints in cynicism*

(Slightly more serious note, I did not get the same "happy vibes" from this trailer the way I got them from the Wonder Woman trailer, so...yeah, makes me a little worried. I wanted to feel "OMG it looks awesome", but right now all I feel is "eeeeeeeeh..." I have better hopes for Thor:Ragnarok than I do for this current trailer. Besides which, opening a black superhero movie with two white dudes in the trailer just does not bode well. Remember that all the other white superheroes were the FIRST thing to show up in their respective trailers, so this is very problematic.)
cashew: Picture of Robin (Dick Grayson) being emo because of Batdickery (DCU // emorobin)
2017-06-08 03:53 pm

Comey testimony - depressing

So, I was keeping up a bit with the Comey testimony today and...well, the Republicans are making me depressed. Rather than focus on the fact that the POTUS has heavily hinted at the FBI director to drop an active case, thinks that it's OK to meddle with on-going investigations, and pretty much came out and demanded personal loyalty from Federal Agents...

...they're excusing gross obstruction of justice with "He's not experienced."


The point is not how experienced he is, the point is this kind of thing shouldn't have occurred to him in the first place. The fact that Trump has done these things, irrespective of what he thinks is or isn't legal, is Not The Point.


I'm...gonna need a few days away from RL.
cashew: dude with sunglasses looking confused (Misc // Haa?)
2017-06-06 10:32 pm


Just spent all day trying to figure out how to make an indoor door. Ugh.

See, the thing about tiled mapping is trying to figure out how to give a sense of depth when using an overhead view and also trying to figure out how much of the character is covered up when walking through the archway.

Granted, I could choose to just make an open hole in the wall, but it looked weird I am, trying to figure out how to work within the limitations of tile mapping. Ugh. (Because doing parallax mapping would be ridiculous and laggy and leave me with no time to do any form of actual game designing as all my time would be dedicated to making freaking doors.)
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2017-06-03 01:11 pm

French President Macron responds to Trump

Holy shit, I can see why the French voted for him. That was very, very charismatic and befitting of a president. Unlike what the US currently has in office. >.>
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2017-06-02 06:14 pm

Minute Earth

Hey, do you like science and funny videos that are fact-checked rigorously? If so, then check out Minute Earth, where science, puns, and youtube meet. Seriously, go watch them.
cashew: close up picture of Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2017-06-02 11:08 am

Wonder Woman - 93% fresh

As of writing, Wonder Woman scored 93% fresh on Rotten Tomatoes.

Could the DCEU actually be turning back and rescuing itself from Snyder's drudgery? Will we see brightly colored DC comic superheroes now? Or is this just an outlier?

Either way, I really, really want to like Wonder Woman and I'm really hopeful that I can.
cashew: Sumomo acting like Sumomo (Chobits // Sumomo)
2017-05-27 08:17 pm

Nier: Automata Japanese play through

Yay! Japanese voices! Always better. XD

(Camera makes me feel a little sick watching it though. Gotta take lots of breaks.)
cashew: dude with sunglasses looking confused (Misc // Haa?)
2017-05-13 02:05 pm

RPG project - Iteration 2 testing needed

Halp. Yadda yadda basically, download, unzip, double click Game.exe in the TestProject folder to play. (Windows Only.)

If you find bugs, weird things, getting stuck, let me know so I can go continue bash my head against the game code.

Also looking for feedback on:
1. Intuitiveness: Could you figure out the controls? Is there too much/too little explanation?

2. Balance: Monsters too hard/easy? Skills are useless? Leveling up takes too long?

3. Polish: Anything that sticks out and is distracting? Dangling codes? Screen flashing? Inconsistent text colors/turns of phrase/typos?

Basically, getting feedback as I go, so I can build moar. Anyway, halp meeeeee... Please and thank you. :)
cashew: Picture of Riza Hawkeye emptying her guns at the viewer (FMA // die)
2017-05-12 09:58 pm

Ugh. RMMV tutorials are shit.

For fuck's sake. Why is it so hard for people to fucking document their code so that the rest of us can learn what the fuck is happening?


(In case you can't tell, I'm having a meltdown over the game engine. How do game developers put up with this shit?)
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2017-05-09 08:47 pm

Trump fires Comey

So the POTUS fires the director of the FBI, James Comey, just as he's investigating him. This is not suspicious at all.

Nope. No suspicions here. What? Watergate? No, I don't see any similarity to Nixon's firing of Cox. Of course not.

Democracy at work, people.
cashew: close up picture of Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2017-05-08 03:08 pm

Internet nerd rage ASAP

Leave a troll entry and tell the head of FCC we want our net neutrality. You can do it, nerds.
cashew: dude with sunglasses looking confused (Misc // Haa?)
2017-05-06 06:47 pm

Life immitating art?

For those who don't speak Chinese, here's a quick summary:

Dude name Xu Xiaodong won the MMA (mixed martial arts) championship and had a lot of fans. He said stuff like "90% of traditional Chinese martial arts is bullshit" and "Taiji Quan is a fake". This incited the ire of some Taiji practitioners, one of whom, Lei Lei, decided to challenge him. Unfortunately, Lei Lei - the challenger - was defeated in less than 20 seconds. This made Xu Xiaodong even more boastful and he proclaimed "traditional Chinese martial arts has no real combat abilities and these schools are just for show". (Another article reported that he called Bruce Lee a fake.)

Following this proclamation, multiple schools of martial arts have come out to challenge him, including but not limited to Shaolin, Wudang, E'mei (少林、武当、峨嵋). (Bruce Lee's school, aka Ip Man's school, aka Yong Chun - 咏春, basically shrugged and said "whatever, he's not as good as he thinks he is.") In response, Xu decided that there were too many people challenging him so he's not going to answer to any challenge. Also, he claims that he's not targeting those traditional practitioners, but rather the fakes like Chen Qian (the first article).

Chen Qian pretty much said "Okay, you and me fight."

Long story short, they agreed to a time and place and two hours or so before the fight, Xu announced he's suffering from a flare-up from an old injury and cancelled said fight.

Meanwhile, the Chinese netizens have expressed a huge range of different responses both supporting and decrying Xu's boast/ego/actions.

Meanwhile, meanwhile, the Chinese journalists are digging into Xu's background in martial arts and it is revealed that he did not study at the Beijing Atheletic Institute as he proclaimed, but rather merely attended some open classes the Institute held for the general public. In other words, he was never admitted as a student at the Institute. So there's that.

My response? What is this? A Wuxia novel? o.O
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2017-05-02 11:15 pm

RPG project - Still going

Still working at it. Current progress is basic skills down...I think. Most of the buff/debuffs have been playtested on my end. Made my first dungeon, which put me into some loopy weirdness. Learning to animate more cutscenes and stuff. Also working on re-doing a lot of GUI, which is giving me a headache, because I'm learning javascript piecemeal trying to figure out what variables I can touch and which ones I can't. @_@

But, hopeful that testing version 2 will be out soon. I still got my testing volunteers, right?

cashew: Picture of Riza Hawkeye emptying her guns at the viewer (FMA // die)
2017-04-27 10:21 am
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Stop it, Tumblr. Not cool anymore.

I think it goes without saying that I ship Bucky/Steve. However, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one capable of shipping and still recognizing the difference between what I want to see versus what was actually portrayed on screen.

What Tumblr fans seem to fail to understand is that the things they cite as "canon" indication of Steve loving Bucky as a lover (as opposed to a brother) are not, in fact, as such.

Example 1: Steve risks life and limb to save Bucky.
I'm sorry, are you unwilling to risk life and limb to save a close family member, like your sister, brother, father, mother, or offspring? Even fucking cats will risk life and limb for close family members, so I can guarantee you this is not a sign of Steve's undying romantic interest in Bucky. Because I don't know if you've ever noticed this, but risking a lot to save a beloved family member is not because you also want to bang them.

Example 2: Steve looses his cool when Bucky is involved.
Yeah, and Iron Man reverts to a 10-year-old child when his mother is involved. Does that mean Iron Man suddenly wants to bang his mom? No. Again, just because Steve deeply loves Bucky doesn't mean he wants that connection to be romantic. Humans are capable of deep love without sexual interest.

Example 3: Steve looks at Bucky with sexual interest.
Bzzzt. Sorry, that's your interpretation. Given that Chris Evans has come out and said that he acted with Steve and Bucky being as close as brothers, and not sexually interested, yeah, you're seeing things where there are none. You may argue that Chris Evans failed to portray that, but it doesn't change that the intent of sexual interest is never meant to be there. It's not subtext if the original author (and in this case, actor) didn't stick it in.

Example 4: Steve doesn't have super close female relationships except for with Natasha and that's a friendship.
Guess what? He doesn't have many super close male relationships either. He's only starting to grow closer to Sam and his ONLY friend pre-serum was Bucky. All it says to me is Steve sucks at having close relationships, period.

Etc. Etc.

Hell, I would even argue there's more Sam/Steve "canon" fodder than there is Bucky/Steve, if only because we get to see Steve attempt to fail-flirt with Sam, and even that is stretching it, because I dare you to tell me that you don't good naturedly rib your friends. Also, just because there's physical contact between two men doesn't make it homosexual, okay? Stop it.

It's because of fans like you, who overreact to every little sliver of male friendship that we developed a media of this macho masculine toxicity, where dudes have to act like stereotypical slobs, dressed in shitty fashion, and have zero manners to be considered manly and not "gay". Because, you know what? Homophobia is still very much a thing, so you intentionally reading something so desperately trying "not to be gay" as homoerotic subtext only drives media to respond worse. Because now they think you don't get it.

Quite frankly, from what I read, I don't blame them. I blame you.
cashew: Nokoru looking drained with a steaming cup of tea and his fingers up in a victory sign (CCD // exhausted)
2017-04-26 09:50 am

Gaming Update

Things I've put down for the time being: GW2. Definitely feeling burnout. Need time away. SAB induced too much sickness and I'm still not completely over it. @_@ Also, when looking at the effort needed to get some of the stuff, I feel...blah. I mean, I still have goals and stuff, but just not really ready to dive into getting them. (Which means I have to learn to get good at the game again once I pick it up but whatever.)

Picked up: Tales of the Abyss (Undubbed - because fuck the English voices); Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep (trying to finish the other two characters' stories, have already done Terra's once before); Final Fantasy IV (trying to experience this game, because this one was ridiculously popular and learning what made it attractive); Puzzle and Dragon (OMG, so behind, so many evolutions to take care of, augh!).

In the works: Tales of Vesperia (Undubbed - PS3 with lower firmware obtained for modding purposes!); Tales of Phantasia: Full Voice edition (because voices!); maaaaaaybe going to try playing the Ico/Shadow of the Colossus series at some point.

The unfortunate part of loving RPGs is that this genre is seriously time consuming. But it's so annoying playing games that don't have good stories. *sadface*
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2017-04-18 05:17 pm

Cool NYT article

Steve Ballmer Serves Up a Fascinating Data Trove

Some interesting quotes as follows:
“Then people say, ‘Those damn bureaucrats!’” Mr. Ballmer exclaimed, channeling the criticism that government is bloated and filled with waste, fraud and abuse. “Well, let’s look at that. People who work in schools, higher ed, public institutions of education — they are government employees.” And they represent almost half of the 24 million, his data shows.

“And you say, O.K., what are the other big blocks?” Mr. Ballmer continued. “Well, active-duty military, war fighters. Government hospitals. Really? I didn’t know that.”

Suddenly, he explained, the faceless bureaucrats who are often pilloried as symbols of government waste start to look like the people in our neighborhood whom we’re very glad to have.
At one point, as he showed me the value of certain tax deductions and blurted out, “If you look at these tax deductions for employer-provided health or for state and local taxes or mortgage-interest deductions, they’re really subsidies to the affluent, which I guess I hadn’t thought about them.”

“Take the mortgage deduction,” he continued. “This is to stimulate homeownership amongst people who are already going to own homes. That is worth, to a middle-income family, a hundred bucks a year. I was a little surprised by that. You can have your own reaction; I was a little surprised by that.”
So, what have you done for society today?

(I'm excited about getting peruse the data, but at the same time, I feel like this project is going to get ignored by 90% of the voting populace.)