cashew: Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2025-03-12 10:45 am
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JD sells replacement Kaküno nibs!

I can get replacement nibs for my Kaküno! Omfg! You have no idea how happy this makes me. This means I don't have to worry about breaking my Kaküno nibs by accident anymore! I can keep using my Kaküno until the pen body falls apart.

Kaküno is the GOAT of fountain pens!

I maintain the best fountain pen remains the Kaküno. So much love!

cashew: dude with sunglasses looking confused (Misc // Haa?)
2025-03-11 11:27 am

Capitalists gotta capital...

So, I look away from NASA for a few years and boom, they've got an entire lunar economy going.

What happened to exploration for scientific reasons? What happened to preserving neutral territories? What happened to space being beyond national borders?

Fuck you.

One thing I have learned as I grew up is the lie of "science for knowledge's sake" has been a cover the West has been using for centuries to exploit natural resources. No wonder actual basic scientific research gets ignored while applied science and technology developments (aka engineering) gets all the fucking grant money.

Just fuck you. I'm so fucking tired of this shit.

cashew: picture of delivery cat from Another Eden dressed in pumpking costume (Another Eden // Pumpkin Cat)
2025-03-09 03:16 pm

OK, Americans need to stop being stupid about Daylight Savings

Am reminded it's once again the annual "let's shift everyone's clock one hour ahead of the natural sleep-wake cycle", aka Daylight Savings Time is kicking in.

And it's deeply stupid.

Credentials? I spent my graduate career studying this shit. It is terrible. Permanently shifting the social clock to de-synchronize with the light cycle leads to all sorts of health complications, such as metabolic diseases, obesity, cancer, cardiovascular diseases, and decreased attention. (And we really don't need any more sources of attention attrition because smartphones have already eroded our ability to focus.) We have literal decades worth of data supporting these conclusions. I mean, I'd link papers, but just do a quick search on PubMed and it should give you plenty of review papers on this subject and they all point in basically the same direction: Get rid of Daylight Savings, it's terrible and bad for human health.

You know how China handles the different time zones? Everybody uses the same clock and starts the day during different hours depending on geographical location. More Western locations start the day later (such as 9:00am or 10:00am) while Eastern zones start earlier (such as 6:00am or 7:00am). And then you stick to the same time all the time. Unified clock and flexibility for local differences plus avoidance of having to deal with changing clocks twice a year.

Seriously, Americans, it should not be this fucking hard.

cashew: Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2025-03-01 02:26 pm

Things are so nuts right now

Sorry, I've been putting my nose to the grind stone writing copious amounts of notes world building a setting for my TTRPG system and haven't been looking up to check Mump-administration's recent bout of crazy.

Then I looked up.

Wow.

Uh...is it too late to divest from U.S.? Because I'm seriously wondering about a) the reliability of FDIC and b) am I even going to be allowed to go into one of these bank branches to get my money in another 2-3 years? Because holy shit the U.S. is on fire.

I know it's not funny...but it's kinda funny in a black comedy way.

cashew: Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2025-02-23 11:40 am

So, some thoughts about Water Margins (《水浒传》)

So this blathering brought on by thinking too much about Wuxia tropes and feeling a bit triggered by one guy yapping on Bilibili.

Context: I think there's not an insubstantial amount of people who think of the classic Water Margins (《水浒传》) as an Ur-Wuxia, or proto-Wuxia. And unsurprisingly, people who consider Water Margins part of the Wuxia genre tend to also admit that they just ignore the second half of the novel...for some reason.

And I have problems with this.

Any analysis of Water Margins that ignores half of the story and tries to focus only on the first half is erroneous. I mean, yes, you can argue that the author just gave up for the second half, but it doesn't change the fact that the second half is still canon and thus still need to be taken into account when critically examining the themes of the novel. Just as you can't really talk about Lord of the Ring themes by ignoring Return of the King, you can't talk about Water Margins by ignoring the second half where the outlaws reintegrate back to civil society.

In fact, I would argue that the reason Water Margins became a classic is actually because of the second half of the novel. For context, the first half of Water Margins depicts people from all walks of life being forced into becoming outlaws in Liangshan. Halfway through the book, after gathering all 108 characters to form a band of outlaw brotherhood, the group surrenders to the government and become re-incorporated into society. Yet, the government betrays the group by sending them off to die on absolutely hopeless military campaigns, and the ones who manage to survive are assassinated, with only a few who ran off to become outlaws again managing to survive the purge. This novel is not about celebrating the heroism of these fictional characters. Water Margins is ultimately a tragedy about the suffering of regular people under the imperial rule.

The contrast between the relative freedom and self-determination of outlaw life with the ruthless exploitation of government rule is what highlights the injustice of imperial politics. To claim that the 108 characters are "heroic" is deliberately ignoring that a lot of said characters are very regular people. They're a mix of thieves, bandits, bullies, delinquents, and a handful of upstanding members of society who nonetheless have their own flaws and problems. I mean, for fuck's sake, the tactician is named 吴用 (homophone for "useless"). This is not a coincidence! The fact that his miscalculations fucks over the resistance multiple times is also not an accident. The author is deliberately making these characters unheroic because they are just normal people shoved into a terrible situation. At its heart, Water Margins is about the tragedy of humans who want to make a difference but can't overcome their basic human foibles.

Unlike Romance of the Three Kingdoms, which pits practically god-like heroes against each other in a struggle to grab fate by the horns and re-direct the political structure toward their own vision of the future, Water Margins is very much about how helpless individuals are in the face of the all encompassing and organized government bureaucracy that is focused on maintaining the political control of the emperor over the country. Three Kingdoms tells the story from the perspective of the ruling class. Water Margins tells it from the perspective of the ruled. (I bring up Three Kingdoms because the author of Three Kingdoms was the student of the author of Water Margins and was involved somewhat in editing and re-publishing the later editions of Water Margins. And yes, there are multiple editions of Water Margins with changes made to some plot details and characterizations.)

So using a Three Kingdoms mentality, one that is concerned with heroes and rulers and statecraft, to understand Water Margins is fundamentally flawed. Water Margins is not celebrating heroes. It's sympathetic to the tragedy of the peasants. And by experiencing that tragedy, we might come to the conclusion that maybe no one, not even actual gods who descended from heaven and reincarnated into humans, can overcome the very human problems that causes social strife. Water Margins is deeply cynical and depressing, it doesn't really offer an answer to how to fix the problem, because the author probably doesn't have one. The influence of Buddhist thought is very obvious given the only solution the novel has to the vagaries of human society is...well, become a star in the sky. There might be brief flashes of momentary justice (as depicted in the first half of the the novel), but those flashes will ultimately be subsumed by the inherent unfairness of the social order. Humans are social creatures, but we will always prioritize ensuring our personal interest first and foremost.

As you can see, this theme is in direct contrast with the typical Wuxia ethos, where a hero is someone who uses their position of strength to protect those who are weak and by doing so are able to change the course of society's trajectory to one that is more beneficial and more just. If anything, Wuxia is a power fantasy, one in which the individual is able to overcome the inherent flaws of human nature. It's a very individualistic perspective of the world, one in which the individual can make meaningful changes. In addition, Wuxia is ultimately a pro-establishment genre. Because unlike Water Margins, where a rebellion is crushed by the uncaring state and all these flesh and blood characters are sent into a meat grinder to benefit the rule of an uncaring emperor, the Wuxia genre's hero actually makes a difference and is able to use their heroism to change how the people in government use their power, sometimes going so far as to being able to influence the emperor's ethics. Heroes, with their bravery and sacrifice, are able to inspire the ruling class to be better; and if they fail, they will simply get rid of the bad apples and put the good apples in charge.

Notice in Wuxia the hero never leads a rebellion, establish a new state system, and govern with egalitarian rule that protects the well-being of the most marginalized groups. The hero never seizes political power for themselves, because governance is not in their purview. They merely exist to be a good moral influence on the people with power. There is no smashing of the pre-existing power structure to establish more systemic equity. (This is also why I find Wuxia to be a very immature and escapist genre. Which is fine, we need brainless escapism to protect our mental health, but Wuxia as a genre is not equipped to deal with meaningful social commentary.)

In many ways, Wuxia and Superhero stories share a lot of similarities. They are all products of people who have extreme discontent with the powers that be, but aren't able to really see how the system itself is the source of the injustice and would rather blame the problem on bad people rather than a bad system.

cashew: dude with sunglasses looking confused (Misc // Haa?)
2025-02-21 12:01 pm

Nothing kills my respect for a video reviewer faster...

...than said reviewer, who poses himself as an authoritative reviewer of Chinese cinema, giving Creation of the Gods a good review.

OH FUCK YOU!

Like...I can't even put into words how terribad Creation of the Gods was as a movie. I hate it. I feel like every time I try to explain why I start frothing at the mouth because my hate and frustration for that movie sends me into a blinding rage and I lose all coherent thought.


I genuinely think that not enough Chinese people (and people of Chinese descent) actually bother to study the classics from a sociopolitical perspective to understand why these classics withstood the test of time. Chinese culture is so mixed, varied, and have difficult to define boundaries, and yet at the same time has a shared sameness that is enforced through an official language. Thus the analysis of media from the perspective of language as it pertains to social norms is so very core to understanding Chinese works, be it novels or stage performance or animation or whatever.

And yet, there are so many English-language "Chinese explainers" that completely ignore the core role language (such as grammar, word choice, proverbs, etc.) plays in conveying the depth of emotion and the framing of interpretation. So much of that is lost in translation and the explainers themselves aren't really learned enough to explain any of that to non-Chinese speakers. It's frustrating AF.

Anyway. Gotta go do some anger management exercises before I blow a gasket.

cashew: Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2025-02-20 07:00 pm

Wait, they named Cap4 "Brave New World" and failed to actually address totalitarianism?

So...let me get this straight: Some brilliant egg-head at MCU studios decided to name the fourth Captain America movie after Huxley's late-stage capitalist dystopian novel and went the route of government conspiracy instead of mega-corporate hostile takeover of the state apparatus?

Like...seriously?

Wow. What a wasted opportunity.

OTOH, I guess no one really wants to see their superhero movie reflecting the reality they live in and be reminded of the fact that superheroes don't exist IRL and you can't punch fascism into submission when your fellow countrymen are overwhelmingly rallying behind it.

But still. What a waste.

cashew: Immortal's Delight item from Honkai: Star Rail game (Star Rail // Boba)
2025-02-14 11:50 am

Fandom keeps disappointing me

Me: Hey, y'know, it's Valentine's Day. Maybe there'll be some fics coming out.

Also me: *checks Lofter*

Lofter: *crickets* 🦗🦗🦗🦗🦗

Me: ε=ε=ε=(~ ̄▽ ̄)~

I mean, I know Valentine's isn't a big deal here but still...you'd think some part of fandom would do something.

cashew: Sumomo acting like Sumomo (Chobits // Sumomo)
2025-02-12 11:10 am

Happy Lantern Festival!

It is officially the last day of New Year's!

Sweet dumplings! Lanterns! Uh...apparently also traditionally the day when Chinese girls are finally allowed outside the house to go meet guys. This is why a bunch of romance poetry is written about lanterns, because girls get one day of freedom to scope out potential love interests.

It's honestly shocking how the Chinese population managed to grow at all during the imperial era... (Hint: they had marriage laws that punished families for not making enough babies. Again, I'm very glad all that shit is behind us now. Except for how there's a few crazies left in government who want to bring back those marriage laws to counter the current population decline and it's like...wow. Glad they're still fringe at the moment. For now. 🤞)

(OT: I wish rulers would figure out that the way to deal with population decline is to import more immigrants. Like...FFS, there's so much labor that we could be bringing in.)

cashew: Nokoru looking drained with a steaming cup of tea and his fingers up in a victory sign (CCD // exhausted)
2025-02-10 12:16 pm

Some songs are too fucking difficult to learn

Was trying to learn 知我 and could not get the rhythms or the notes down. Finally looked up the sheet music and...fucking hell, the vocal part not only spans across two and half octaves with the highest note being a high A (barely in my range) while the lowest goes to a low G (out of my range), the measures also keep changing between 2/4, 4/4, and 6/4 mid-stanza.

My brain hurts. Also my throat is like dying.

And yes, I am trying to learn a new song to distract myself from the batshit going right now.

cashew: Sumomo acting like Sumomo (Default)
2025-02-08 09:32 am

Having a hard time concentrating

Question: so, like, does anyone actually believe the rule of law can still hold Trump administration (including Elon & his team of techbro muskrats) accountable?

If yes, how do you see this happening when the enforcement arm is under Trump administration's control?

If no, why is the only resistance coming in the form of lawsuits?

Like, is anyone paying attention that the court's rulings haven't actually stopped the illegal actions? USAID still can't get their funding. NOAA data remains deleted. "Fork in the Road" emails are still being sent out. Etc. The court orders are straight up being ignored.

I mean I know it's only been 3 weeks, but like...shouldn't all the people who were warning that Trump is a fascist and that this is going to lead to the fall of democracy have been making plans for exactly this scenario three months ago? I'm a bit tired of reading smug "I told you so" posts when none of y'all had enough conviction in your beliefs to have organized a counter-fascist operation.

Again, the other side is willing to use violence to put a fascist in power. What is the resistance willing to do to stop the fascist coup?

(As an outsider, I can't look away from the garbage fire that is the U.S. government at the moment.)

cashew: Kohane looking over her shoulder at a glowing piece of snow (xxxHolic // winter)
2025-02-04 11:54 am

Hey, Americans...are you OK?

Elon Musk just took the keys to the US Treasury. How are Americans not invoking the 2nd Amendment right now? Are you seriously going to sit around waiting for the institution to crash?

Like, you guys realize Musk just committed a financial coup on the national piggy bank right? The federal government's spending is no longer controlled by Congress. Why aren't Americans panicking?

(Confused outside observer watching from overseas.)

cashew: Immortal's Delight item from Honkai: Star Rail game (Star Rail // Boba)
2025-01-26 02:25 pm

It's that time of year

White American friends are deeply confused by Chinese New Year. Every year I feel like I have the same conversation to explain:

  1. When is Chinese New Year? (Answer: It depends. This year it's Jan 29.)

  2. How is Chinese New Year celebrated? (Answer: It depends.)

  3. Why are people celebrating every weekend? (Answer: Because it lasts a month and a half.)

  4. Why is it called the Spring Festival when it's not spring? (Answer: Because it's near spring according to the 24 solar terms.)

  5. Why is it spring when it's not near the spring equinox? (Answer: Because the 24 solar terms sets the spring equinox as mid-spring. Seasons are a social construct.)

  6. Is the 24 solar terms the Chinese calendar? (Answer: No. Chinese people use two different calendars because our traditions are old and weird.)

  7. Why is Chinese New Year always around Jan/Feb when it's a lunar new year. (Answer: Because it's a lunisolar calendar, not a lunar calendar.)

  8. Why are there so many names? (Answer: Because governments keep changing and also English translations aren't official translations and also because Chinese New Year celebrations existed before 1600BCE. Also for some reason Koreans wants to claim Chinese New Year as theirs so they refuse to call it Chinese New Year. I honestly don't understand why Koreans want to claim Chinese New Year. It's really baffling.)

And then there's the entire explanation of how a huge part of Chinese New Year is about bribing gods to write a positive year end review for the Jade Emperor so next year's fortune will be better. Because Chinese mythology is basically "heaven has the exact same bureaucracy as earth, but with more mysticism and magic and is multiple times more expensive". Folk religion is confusing AF because there's no canon, keeps changing and is also deeply secular. 🤣

cashew: Immortal's Delight item from Honkai: Star Rail game (Star Rail // Boba)
2025-01-19 03:37 pm
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《唐朝诡事录之西行》(Strange Tales of the Tang Dynasty 2) - Review

Yup, I think I have a new fandom. But on with the review.

TL;DR - Not as good as season 1 plot-wise, but character relationships have deepened. Super natural elements require a lot of suspension of disbelief, but thankfully not super important to the actual mystery. Solid 4 out of 5 stars.


The long version )

Overall, I'm not particularly fond of the relationship dynamic nearly as much, especially the expansion of a partnership into an ensemble cast. But personal preferences aside, the show is still a pretty fun experience. Fun enough that I am now reading all the fanfic as I wait for season three to air.

cashew: Sumomo acting like Sumomo (Default)
2025-01-14 11:58 am
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《唐朝诡事录》 (Strange Tales of the Tang Dynasty) - Review

English subs here. Note, you have to be in (or VPN into) a non-US region to watch all the episodes.

TL;DR - Solid 4 stars out of 5. Some mystery details needed more explaining. Some of the supernatural stuff is hand-waved away as "illusions" without really explaining how the illusions are generated. Also, animals don't work like that.


Non-TL;DR version:

I have so many feels right now. )

So, to conclude, fun show, great duo partnership, one romantic couple developed in a way that wasn't annoying while another romantic couple felt forced into the show for no reason other than to pair the spare. The depiction of the court politics was unsympathetic to women in power, so it's a bit...rough. Worth a watch if you like to watch two guys growing and learning from each other.

cashew: Immortal's Delight item from Honkai: Star Rail game (Star Rail // Boba)
2025-01-10 12:11 pm

New ship? ... I think I have a new ship

✅Tang Dynasty

✅Mystery

✅Military-Civil officials partnership

✅No romance

Although there's an age gap, because the co-leads are not written as a romantic couple they have a surprisingly equal relationship. A lot of bickering and grudging respect going on. And I am all for that. Thankfully, it seems the supernatural aspects of the mysteries are mostly caused by hallucinogens and not actual supernatural stuff. Meanwhile, a lot of criminal abuse of superstitions, which...well, given this is the 600-700s CE, so very appropriate.

Am only on episode 2 of the show but already sold on the partners. (I hear there's some kind of het romance that comes up later, but the main focus is the mystery, the romance just kinda dangles in the background.) Seeing as the show was popular enough that it got a second season, I'm super hopeful this is not going to disappoint. On top of everything else, the original novel was written in "faux encyclopedia" format, so the characters are all originally written for the show and so far I'm quite liking them. The language is a bit rough, the switch from archaic written grammar to modern vernacular is a bit jarring. But honestly, it's still making enough of an attempt to be "old" sounding that I'm willing to put up with it.

English subs of the first season is on YouTube.

Crossing fingers this does not disappoint! 🤞

cashew: Sumomo acting like Sumomo (Default)
2025-01-07 06:48 pm

I really want to see this succeed

A digital TTRPG with Eurogaming influences where you can play a bird wizard?

Yes please. Because apparently this game is also meant to be playable over discord and that means overseas gaming without needing to set up virtual tabletops, plus there's a single player mode. If this game works as intended, then it just might be the MMO replacement I'm looking for.

(Yes, I'm still writing drafts for my TTRPG. Yes, it's very much driven by wanting to play a game that has more creative freedom. Yes, the obsession with HSR and 王砚×兰珏 has distracted me, but also it's totally getting folded into my current draft of the sample adventure, because everything just makes me want to play an RPG set in fake Ancient China right now.)

cashew: dude with sunglasses looking confused (Misc // Haa?)
2025-01-05 05:43 pm

Good Omens (TV) - Uh...

So, I tried watching a bit of Good Omens TV adaptation and...hm...well, it's a bit of mixed bag.

On the one hand, the show clearly realized the most entertaining aspect was Crowley×Aziraphale interaction, so there was significantly more of that, which is good.

On the other hand, going through "human history" with two White dudes as a demon and angel, presuming that the all events in the Bible is historical whilst making snide comments about said events, and depicting the infernal and celestial servants as "human" but also demonstrating the author has a clear idea of "good" vs. "evil" whilst trying to ruminate on the nature of "good" vs. "evil" but not acknowledging that morality and human judgement of good and evil stems from human understanding, thus not divine, just...feels a bit shallow.

In other words. The show both wants to make fun of the idea of "god as the moral arbiter" but also condemn revolutionaries for being too blood thirsty.

It's like... Guys (or rather, guy, since Neil Gaiman is solely in charge of the show's script), you can't have it both ways. Either you take a secular stance on morality, wherein you accept that morality is a social construct, therefore there is no authority and the judgement of whether an event is "good or evil" is dependent on the interest of the person doing the judging. OR you accept that there is some divine moral authority on what is good or bad and you kind of lose the ground for making fun of the Old Testament's morality because...well, divine authority and all that.

The other thing I'm a bit annoyed by is that despite the general theme of "good and evil are human constructs, demons and angels don't actually have moral compasses because they're just supernatural minions of two supernatural factions", the show continues to use over-played tropes when it comes to the depiction of Crowley and Aziraphale. One of the fun elements of the book version of these two characters is that they are not depicted as "good" or "evil" specifically. Yes, Crowley is uncaring of the damage he wreaks when pursuing his own goals. Yes, Aziraphale has a constant urge to help if he sees someone in need of assistance. But there's nothing inherently good or bad about what the two characters are doing. Neither Crowley nor Aziraphale have strong moral objections to good or bad things because of their feelings. When they object to doing a thing, it is because they are driven by obedience to their faction, not because the thing registers as "good" or "bad" on an emotional level.

However, in the show, both demon and angel have a clear and agreed upon standard for "good" vs "evil". Demons merely do evil while angels do good. Which might have been fine if the subjects involved were cut and dry events like "help a frail old lady across the street" or "burn people alive for shits and giggles". But when it comes to events such as peasant uprising against the monarchy because the peasants are dying by droves under the mismanagement of the aristocracy... "Good" and "evil" are just such weak concepts when dealing with the complexity of social power struggles and equitable distribution of resources.

In other words, I find Good Omens TV show about as a mixed bag as the book but for very different reasons.

cashew: Kamui holding a bunch of books (X // even heroes read)
2025-01-03 11:40 am
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Book Review - Good Omens

Grading explained:

A - Loved it. Want to re-read. Will recommend.

B - Pretty happy about reading it. No huge urge to re-read. Might recommend.

C - It's fine. Won't recommend.

D - Technically competent. Waste of time to read. Won't recommend.

F - Technically incompetent. Won't recommend.


With that out of the way, tl;dr - Good Omens, grade C.

Details )

I'm genuinely confused by people who rank Good Omens as their favorite book of all time. The book seems solidly mediocre: the writing is technically competent and the language is snappy, but there's nothing particular outstanding about it.

cashew: Minako's transformation pen (SailorMoon // pen is mightier)
2025-01-01 10:41 pm

Giving up on web novels, again

Welp. The state of BL web novels is dire. The obsession with making one half of the romantic couple the most annoying person to have ever existed is unbearable. This is an id I cannot understand.

Back to re-reading fanfic until I feel inspired enough to write again.